Today was an upsetting day. When I originally decided to start blogging about my journey with PTSD, I decided that everything could be open on the table for everyone to know. But today, today's journey cannot be shared to it's full extent. It's not that I am afraid that a specific person will find this, read it, and be hurt by it, but because I just have such a strong opinion about it and it deals with family, so some information will be kept hidden.
Last week I emailed half of my family explaining my PTSD to them. I mostly got back the responses I was expecting, I support you, I love you...la de da de da. But today's reply..... made me cry for a few hours. It's not that this person(s) were not supportive and didn't say they didn't love me... but their email was full of so many lies, I can't trust anything they said in it. It took almost a whole week to get a response. When I read the email, I didn't believe one word of it... it was all complete bull shit.
But, reading all those lies made my relationship with that person much more clear. I now know that I do not want a relationship with this person(s). I will be mutual, but there is no relationship to be had.
I am done. I don't need people like that in my life.
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