This past week and a half have been so overwhelming. My anxiety seems to be like a roller coaster, always going up and down. I absoutley hate it, it's one of the worst feelings in the whole world. I just wish it would all go away. I want to take more anxiety medication but I can't. I count down the minutes and seconds to the next time I can take my medicine.
I really just want to spend time laying in bed, not doing anything. But I know at times that doing that will make it worse. I'm happy to have the girls I work with, and work, to keep me busy all the time. Nothing can distract my anxiety, but being with the work girls seems to help.
My dreams the past nights have flown my anxiety through the roof. It's so hard because it's not like I can prevent the dreams from happening, they just happen. I hate waking up in fear and horror, it's a day ruiner. I'm getting ready to tell my brother and sister in law all about my PTSD tomorrow, and it's really bringing me to a panic. I guess I am just afraid, not sure what I am afraid of, but I just don't want to do it.
I feel like my anxiety more than ever is completley taking over my body, I feel like a panic attack will be coming to me soon......
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