Rewarding myself

My therapist has always been the type of person to tell me that I need to reward myself for what I've been doing, for going through the hard times, for everything. I denied that rewarding myself was a positive thing for so long was good for me because why should I reward myself for something I have to go through.

After I told my dad all the details about my PTSD, I rewarded myself with buying a vera bradley bag for school. Every time I look at the bag I think about how much I had been through prior to that point and how far I have come since being diagnosed and even before that. It's like my moving on point. Maybe it's my ending of a chapter beginning of a new one. I can never go back to before telling my dad and be like that again, I can only move on. Looking at that bag is part of my journey..

I decided that I would buy myself a Kindle fire for a reward. I would never buy something this big for myself..ever! But I'm putting so many different ways of rewarding myself into buying the kindle fire. One of the big reasons is that I have finally told my family the details of my PTSD, that was a HUGE step for me. I am also allowing people to support me now. Yes, PTSD is a very personal battle, but you need to have people to lean on that support you to help get you through it. (And I didn't realize how much you did till just a few days ago.) My one year of being diagnosed is coming up on May 9th. This will be part of the reward to myself. It's hard to  even imagine that I am almost 1 year into my healing process. 1 year since being diagnosed. 1 year since everything changed. 1 year since I've began to understand myself.

Wow... still can't believe it. I've almost made it to 10 months... 1 year isn't far behind.