looking happier than ever

I got a compliment the other day. Someone told me that I look happier than I have looked in the past few years. At first, I just kind of blew off the compliment with a thank you, but later I really started to think about it. Someone who has known me my whole life, who saw me slip into a deep depression over the last few years think that I am looking happier than ever. Why did I blow off such an awesome compliment!?

It was true though, I really do think that since 2010, I have been the happiest I have been. I am stable on my medication which is Paxil (40mg once a day) and Clonzepam (1mg as needed) after spending a year and a half trying to find a happy balance. I go to therapy on a regular basis which I honestly think has done the world for me. In therapy, my therapist and I don't just talk about my anxiety and my PTSD, but about my everyday life and what's going on. She helps me make big decisions in my life and I am so thankful for her.

People have also slowed down on asking how I am doing, which has honestly helped a lot too. It's not that I hate when people ask me how I am doing and how therapy is going, but without people asking all the time, I feel a sense of being 'normal.' I don't get offended when people ask me how I am, but it's slowed down a lot and I am thankful for that.

I have so much support from my family and friends and I am so great-full for that. 

Truthfully, this is probably the most stable my life has ever been. (THANK GOD!)

I'm in a great place right now, and even though it's been a long ride (2.5 years) I am so happy to finally be here!