Keeping my head held high

I am trying to stay as positive as I can right now. I have that feeling when you feel depression slowly creeping up on you wanting to bring you down. It's as if it's trying to suck me in and I'm trying to stay out.

This time of year, even though it's my favorite time, always makes me sad. Within the month of December, there are 3 anniversaries of death that I have gone through. One that was so significant, it was the main cause of my PTSD. I am so happy that day is over and I am trying to stay happy and positive. I have so much to look forward to in my life right now.

I'll be house sitting soon and I will get in my 'dog therapy.' (My dog therapy includes a lot of cuddling.) It's almost christmas which is something to REALLY be excited about! I love christmas and everything about it. The work week is almost over (that's something to be REALLY happy about. The kiddos brain's are already on break.) I have a four day weekend this weekend and next weekend... MUCH needed. My great aunt doris is doing soooo much better and has been moved to a regular room. (I still have yet to see her because of my mono but I ask my grandma everyday to tell her I love her.) My friends are home from college for the next month and that's something to be excited about. I have a FANTASTIC job which I love so much. Those kids are my life and  I would do anything for them, even the more difficult ones. I work with some of the best people ever!! SHOUTOUT to Bobs, Noel, and Randil! I work at a great school with great supportive staff. I'm getting excited for all of the holiday festivities coming up! I'm raising money for special olympics when I do the polar plunge! And I've been dating a great guy for the past month.

Things are going great and I have so much to look forward to. Now the hard part is trying to keep my head held high while my depression is trying to bring me down.