This past week I found out that two people I know have been diagnosed with anxiety in the past few months. I figured I would do a quick blog about anxiety and how much it SUCKS.
For me, anxiety is the worst thing in the world. I would much rather live in my flashbacks than to have anxiety. Anxiety hurts, physically, mentally, and emotionally. When that anxiety hits my entire body tenses up. It's as if every muscle in my body has become frozen. I feel like I can't move. My muscles will tighten up so bad that it causes pain. My heart will start going really fast. It's as if I can literally look down at my chest and see my heart pounding. My breathing becomes more rapid and I know that my breathing is the first thing I need to get under control before I break into a full on panic attack.
I take one of my anxiety pills and I need to separate myself from whatever or whoever I am around. It usually takes me 10-30 minutes to calm myself down. I need to be by myself when I am trying to calm myself down or it just takes longer. Afterwards, I'm not in the mood to do anything. I just want to lay down and be with myself. For me, it usually takes a day to 'recover' from anxiety. My brain is so mentally exhausted from everything.
No one can understand how horrible and awful anxiety is until they experience it. It's the worst.
Honestly, there aren't enough words to describe what anxiety feels like. After typing all of this, I still feel like you won't understand unless you have anxiety.
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