I had a therapy appointment today and by the end of the session, we finally figured out what caused the trigger 3ish weeks ago. This is not counting the out of body experiences or the nightmares, that's just a part of having PTSD.
I am super stoked for school to start up. I know that I am going to do a great job and I am excited for all my classes that are all directly related to the field I am going into. However, I am worried about slipping back into depression and having anxiety filled days, that is my trigger. I know it may sound dumb or silly or not make any sense to people, but this is a huge thing in my life so I wasn't too suprised when we got down to the 'root' of my trigger.
The first two years I went to school, my semesters were pretty much just filled with anxiety and I slipped into a deep depression. Because of that, my grades suffered and I did not feel good about myself at all. I hated school and everything about it. I never wanted to go I hated it so bad.
Now the goal is to figure out what I can do to keep myself from becoming depressed and taking my anxiety medication whenever I am allowed too. We really aren't quite sure what to do yet. We, being my therapist and me. My 'homework' for the week is to try and figure out ways to keep me out of the 'hole.' I am just hoping it will be easy and something simple and not complicated.
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