I spoke too soon....

The nightmares have contunied and have become more dramatic. These nightmares seem to be getting scarier to some points.

One of my nightmares the other day had me in a trance for most of the day. I was driving my car down the street where my grandparents live and I was going around the cul-de-sac area and another car drove straight down and t-boned us. All I remember is the sirens going off and the ambulance arriving to take my sister and I to the hospital. When we got there we both got immediate CT scans. My sister had broken her neck and I had severe pain in my neck and had damaged nerves in my neck. The pain was horrific. I could literally feel the pain in my neck during and after my dream. Then I woke up....

For some people, that wouldn't be a 'nightmare,' for me, it's considered a PTSD nightmare. I had other nightmares this past week, however they have become less frequent, every other day or so instead of everyday... although I am not remembering the nightmares a lot more when I wake up. That nightmare is really the only one that I can remember, but I know I have had more.

These nightmares have just started over the last few weeks, I have never had them before. They are the worst. They put me in a trance. I'm not myself, I'm scared. It's plain awful. I really wish I didn't have PTSD, sometimes I don't think I can handle it, but there isn't another option, I have to, so I do.